Q09

What is a fear that you have and how has it limited you? How do you plan on letting it go or overcoming it in the coming year?

I am afraid of failure. I am afraid of being without what I need. I am afraid of not justifying my place in this world. I am working on these fears, by learning to value myself, and give myself the space to exist in this world, regardless of what the haters say about me. Whatever I am, whatever I do with good heart, that is more than enough - it's wonderful.

I have a fear of failing & of not being accepted. When I allow myself to fall into those negative thoughts, it does nothing but bring negative results. It is so apparent to me, how successful I can actually be when I don't allow those negative thoughts to take residence in my mind, so my goal is to make a fervent effort towards keeping my nose to the grindstone, putting forth the best effort that I know I'm capable of, & consciously not allowing the thoughts of failure & inadequacy take over my state of mind.

That by doing anything out of my normal routine I could somehow lose control. By remembering that God is in control and the harder I fight and tighter I grasp the more likely I am to lose. Live my faith.

My biggest fear is being broke in my old age. I feel like I always worry about money. I'd love to let go of this fear. I'd like to get to the root of this and let it go. And rather than "waiting until I'm retired" to have fun, I need to do things to reward myself now, enjoy life now. Seeing Margie die so suddenly at age 65, working up until a month before her death, seemed so painful. i want to enjoy my grandson and the new baby when she arrives in January.

The fear of being wrong. Admitting wrongness, keeps me from a full life, from being truly open.